söndag, oktober 30, 2005

Life never turns out the way you plan

If you had asked me in 2000 where I thought I´d be in five years, my answer would not have been "In Sweden". I thought I´d continue my travels all over the world. So many places to see and so little time. But just think how much person can change in a few years. My thinking has changed, from thinking about nothing but new ecxiting countries, to my family for example.

I belive a lot has to do with the birth of my niece. After she came to be, I wanted nothing but to be able to see her more often. And you start to think about your own family situation, I might not want babies right now, but when that day comes, where do I want to have them? Where do I want them to grow up? the answer was easy, close to home. So a seed starts to grow, " is this really what I want to do for the rest of my life, go from place to place live in a suitcase pretty much, see everyone back home maybe twice a year, miss yet another birthday, wedding, funeral, baby being born, X-mas. Is it still worth it?" I guess the answer was no...

I haven´t written anything about what really happened with S, I felt (and still feel) it was between the two of us and the reasons for the breakup was nothing I wanted to put on display. Lets just say it was a very difficult decision to make and very hard since it was MY decision in the end. It´s been a rolercoaster ride since I got home, (well way before that as well) But it´s starting to slow down now.

It feels right to be living in Sweden again although people might think and ask; "well for how long are you gonna feel that way, you´re such a Vagabond, you won´t settle down you´re too restles." Well, for all those people I guess I just have to prove them wrong. :) In the end it doesn´t matter what they think, it´s what I feel is right for me. I might miss the ocean and the beach, but there is nothing that says I can´t still travel even if I don´t stay and live there.

Life never turns out the way you plan it, that´s why I never plan to far ahead in the future. Something always comes up that changes everything. You only live once so one day at a time. :) I just read Marian Keyes´ "no dress rehearsal" and it puts your life in perspective. Like don´t wait to do that thing you´ve always wanted to do (bunjy jumpinganyone?) next week it might be too late. But I´ll stop now before I get too philosofical and lecturing. :)

fredag, oktober 28, 2005

Oprah On Men and Relatiosnhips

(I guess this could go for both men and women)

*If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

*Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour.

*Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

*Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.

*Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

*If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

*Don't settle.

*If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

*Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

*The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

*Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

*If something bothers you, speak up.

*Never let a man know everything. He might use it against you later.

*You cannot change a man's behaviour. Change comes from within.

*Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job.

*Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

*Never let a man define who you are.

*Never borrow someone else's man.

*All men are NOT dogs.

*You should not be the one doing all the bending... compromise is two way street.

*You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... look for someone complimentary... not supplementary.

*Dating is fun... even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

*Make him miss you sometimes... when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

måndag, oktober 24, 2005

New Job

So I´m starting to get organized. Starting a new job on Wednesday. It´s only a part time job, but the one that I really want doesn´t start until January so I needed something to do until then. This one is at a gym called "Fysiken" http://www.fysiken.nu/ and I´m gonna be there a couple days a week to start with. The big positive is that I get free membership, so now I have no excuse not to start working out again!! :)

The job in January is at a Yoga centre and I´m taking over the current therapist´s clients as she is leaving for Hawaii for a few months, and when she gets back she´s only gonna work a coupe of days a week. (so I´ll probably keep the one at Fysiken as well to get five days a week of work. )

I´m fairly positive about all this, I´ve had a lot of choices, now only time will tell.

lördag, oktober 15, 2005

"You´re Doris and I´m Nemo"

Yesterday was my fun day with Kajsa. We went to the indoor swimming pools close to where they live and where Kajsa hadn´t been yet. We had a great time playing around in the kids pool with all the floating toys and then in the smaller childrens pool. We rode the waterslide, with her in my lap, about ten times and she also got the courage to try the big deep pool, but with a firm grip on my hands.

As we were splashing around she says; "Millo, you´re Doris and I´m Nemo, let´s swim". Maybe she was hoping that I would have the same short term memory loss and forget that I had told her five minutes earlier that it was time to go.

Days like this makes me happy to be so close to my family again!!

onsdag, oktober 12, 2005

Auntie Millo X2

I feel that I now can share my great news that I´m gonna be an aunt again! Sis´ is pregnant again and is going to have a spring baby! :) And I am super psyked!!! I can be there from the start and not see my little niece/nephew when he/she is several months old, the way it was with Kajsa. I am soooo happy for them!!! Here he/she is;

Speaking of Kajsa, she just had her third birthday and on Friday I´m going to Stockholm to take her to an indoor swimming pool since I missed her birthday party. Gotta make it up somehow and she seems really exited to go. And so am I! :)

Here in Gothenburgh things are moving along, I´ve been to several interviews and have looked at a few rooms that are for rent. Going to one today and one tomorrow so we´ll see if it pays off. Something SHOULD come along soon. I hope....